Hello there Princess followers. It's been a while. I know I've been off the grid and I won't bore you with excuses. Just know that I'm back.
For the next 84 days (12 weeks) I will be chronicling one of my biggest health decisions of 2011. I'm going to take on the Body For Life Challenge. (For Reals this time). No halfway. No quitting. No Excuses. Just good old fashioned honesty and hard work.
God, this is depressing. But, here are the deets on my beginning weight this morning.... 253.2. That screeching sound you just heard were my sobs. But, that's the end of that. The only thing to do now if forge ahead. I had the good fortune to attend an event with some of my BFL (Body for Life) peeps a couple of weekends ago and it left me feeling inspired and depressed at the same time. Inspired because of all of the success stories and depressed because a year ago at that same event I was about 25 pounds lighter. How does one let it all go to hell in just a year?
One of the guest speakers talked about going on his Farewell Food Tour before going on any kind of diet and I seriously feel like I go on one of those every week. Sunday night I vow to start again on Monday. Then, I oversleep and by Monday night I'm back on the tour again. It's like some morbid food version of the movie Groundhog Day. But, I don't want to be doomed to history repeating itself over and over again. I'm kind of tired of it.
There was another speaker who talked about her addiction to food. I've never heard anyone talk about it in those terms before and as I sat there with tears streaming down my face, I thought "Oh God, that's me." (But, I'll save that discussion for another post)
I'll admit that I'm scared. I've been here so many times both publicly and privately..Only 20% of me actually believes I can do this. But, it's not going to keep me from trying. It won't be easy. There's a race, Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas AND New Years. Holy Hell... what was I thinking?!
Go Big or Go Home right? God help me.
Day 1 of 84
Beginning Weight 253.2
Within 12 weeks
I will lose 25 pounds of fat
I will complete a 5k run
I will get my cholesterol to 180
Measurements to come later.
Cheers!
The Angry Princess
I have also been on a tour, for months! I also was about 25 lbs lighter last year. I lost 65 lbs 5 years ago and gained EVERY pound back and I keep beating myself up about it. I seriously have to make some changes in my life. I don't like the way I look and the extra weight tires me out and makes me feel bad.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your transparency. I will be cheering you on!
~Chanda~
I'm with you both! Hang in there. Let's do this together.
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