Under Pressure

Day 209

I had a glorious weekend in the mountains. In fact, my 43rd birthday was "almost" as fun as my 40th birthday. There was a beautiful chalet, some adrenaline pumping white water, and a near heart stopping episode with some guard dogs that will have to be the subject of another post.

Coming back to reality has been a bit like the day after Christmas let down. My weekend was so good that it has only served to highlight just how much stress I'm under in the real world.

There are two things that let me know when stress is becoming a problem in my life (well three... ok four).
1. Insomnia
2. Emotional Eating
3. The Dreaded Eye Twitch
4. Tension in my neck and shoulders

I don't have insomnia. I have been guilty of some emotional eating; the eye twitch is definitely in full force today; and my neck is KILLING me. But, it's not all bad. Exercise has become a great source of relief for me. I am also fortunate because I have things to look forward to. That's the good stuff. It's important to have that in life. But, I need to get this stress thing in check before it really takes a toll on my health. The dreaded eye twitch is not a good sign at all.

Professionally, I'm in a bit of a rut. There's no immediate end in sight to my current work pressures. I just have to deal with them. But, in the meantime, I'm taking the bull by the horns. I acknowledge that there is only so much that I can do. I will take comfort in the knowledge that I'm doing the best I can and I will not put up with any crap.

On the personal front, I tend to keep a lot of things bottled up inside and frankly would prefer to hear about other people's problems than talk about my own. But, I do find it a bit disheartening when you always try to be there for others only to discover that they have no interest in you at all when they no longer need your help, your shoulder or your advice.

Ok... I'm through griping. I'm off to solve problems. Kick some ass and take some names.

Cheers!
Margaret