STOP and hit the RESET Button

Day 24

Today has not been a stellar day. I was planning on a completely different post. But, I'm kind of struggling. I haven't done anything terrible. In fact, I'm fighting destructive behavior pretty hard. I can't put my finger on it, but something is off today.

I was up until 3 am last night. This resulted in another Sunday of sleeping in which kinda made me mad at myself. I suppose it's not a good idea to stay up so late playing Wii with your mate. :)

I was kind of grumpy for no reason today and I simply couldn't figure out what i wanted to eat. It didn't help that I hadn't really planned anything for today. And, this was making me tense. Because I couldn't make a decision, it was 1 pm before I ate anything. That's not good and I know it.

I started off with a Natural Peanut Butter and Fruit Preserves sandwich with a banana and a glass of milk. An hour or so later, I decided that didn't cut it so I had a slice of lean canadian bacon and a piece of string cheese. A little while later I had a grapefruit and some nuts. A little while later I had an apple. A little while later I had another piece of string cheese and two slices of lean Canadian bacon. I haven't had nearly enough water today and that's a problem too.

On the upside, this translates to roughly 1291 calories, 65 grams of fat, 23 grams of fiber, 134 grams of carbohydrates and 55 grams of protein. Normally, I don't count this stuff up. But, I was nervous. Fortunately, from a nutritional standpoint I'm right in line with where I need to be. And, I still have plenty of room for a healthy dinner. So, why do I feel so bad about it?

I guess it's because I know that emotions and lack of planning have ruled my eating habits today. On some level, I'm glad that my constant snacking has been nutritionally sound. But, I'm on dangerous ground here. I really can't afford to let emotions rule my eating habits. This is exactly the kind of behavior that led to my being obese.

I'm not content to chalk this day up to a loss. I scrapped my original post so that I could talk about my issues here. I also decided to get busy doing something other than watching tv. I switched out all of our bed linens and did a whole bunch of laundry. I also helped Tony declutter a room. Now that I feel like I've accomplished something, I am sort of back on track.

Next step is to plan my meals and workout for tomorrow. These acts stopped the cycle of snacking and I now feel more in control. Sometimes you just have to STOP and hit the RESET button. All does not have to be lost.

Cheers!
Margaret