Act of Defiance

Day 136

I've drawn a line in the sand that says NO MORE! Today, I purged my closet by getting rid of every piece of size 22 clothing I own. It's all too big and I'm shouting to the universe NEVER AGAIN! I will never ever ever ever ever be that size again.

I feel empowered by it. Re-energized even. Unfortunately, most of the clothes I own that are smaller tend to be a little dated. Not 1985 dated... but, definitely circa 2005 and earlier. Oh well. It's just one more excuse to go shopping right? I'm actually beginning to enjoy shopping. Yesterday, I bought a new dress and a new shirt both of which are a size 14/16 thank you very much. I can't wait for the day when I can leave the plus sizes behind. But, for now, I'll settle for being a little less giant when I'm shopping at The Giant... I mean Lane Bryant.

We are spring cleaning at my house this weekend and I'm purging everything that doesn't have a place or a use. If I haven't seen it for two years why bother keeping it? The coolest people we know are coming to visit Memorial Day weekend and we intend for the accomodations at Casa de Angell to be 4 Diamond! Plus, one of them is a little OCD and we've got to make certain that they meet Mr. Cups' white glove treatment. (Just kidding. You know I love you man).

Last night we went to a party at my former employer and good friend Mark Oldham's house. He and his wife both turned 50 this year and they threw a huge shindig to celebrate 100 years of living. What an awesome concept. And, let me tell you, these folks know how to throw a party. It was a great time. Normally, I go to these kinds of things completely wigged out by my appearance. I stress over it to the point that I start sweating and get extra grumpy. Anyway, when we arrived I was genuinely happy to see folks that I haven't seen in a long time. I felt good and I knew I looked my best for where I am in my journey. That confidence truly enabled me to enjoy myself in a way that I can't usually achieve. I even get party anxiety around my best friends because I'm always obsessing about how fat I am.

Many of the folks I got to see also read this blog. I want to give them a special shout out because it's so motivating to me when I hear "I read your blog all the time." That accountability is a key factor in my success thus far. You all don't know just how much you help me. I love you guys. Thanks!

Ok, I'm off to throw away some more junk.

Cheers!
Margaret