Day 159
I've been in a "mood" for days now. A friend of mine (half) jokingly said to me today "you're gonna have to deal with your own stuff sometime Margar." Honestly, I do feel like I'm dealing with my stuff. If I wasn't, I'd have eaten us out of house and home already. The thing is, dealing with my feelings kind of sucks. It's so much easier to just push them way down deep inside and cover them up with food. That's not the politically correct thing to say. But, it's the truth.
I think the fact that I'm not eating my feelings is evidence that I am dealing with my issues. But, I'm sick of it. I'm ready for it to go away and let me live my life peacefully oblivious of any tribulations. Some of what is bothering me simply cannot be changed. The only thing left for me to do is accept it. I sort of thought I had done this already. Apparently, my brain forgot to tell my heart.
Once we get to a certain age, I'm sure all women feel bodies are betraying them. But, I'm way too young to feel like my body hates me. But, it does and it has for a looonnnnngggg time. PCOS, Thyroid Disease, Insulin Resistance, Infertility and High Cholesterol are proof of its disdain. Two of these things are completely out of my control. Three of them are totally within my power to change. So, I'm choosing to accept the things I cannot change and keep working on the things that I can.
My little pity party is over. I've got my big girl boots on and I'm forging ahead. In case you didn't know it, "I'm Bringing Sexy Back."
Cheers!
Margaret
Hey Margaret, I was just looking over your progress and I think you are doing great. I need to get up and moving as well. I would like to lose about 50 pounds. I lost 25 a couple of years ago but put it right back on the next year. As you said, "life happens". Maybe after reading your blog I can get motivated to move more. Keep up the good work.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the encouragement. It's hard work. But, it can be done. Some days are definitely easier than others. I've had triumphs, challenges, setbacks and a few outright failures. But, I'm still standing and moving forward.
ReplyDeleteMy advice for getting started is to set a few SMART goals (specific, measurable, attainable, relevant and time bound). Take your goal to "move more" for instance. How about we set a goal that you will walk 20 minutes, 3 times a week for the next 4 weeks. You could set it for more, but without knowing your current activity level it's hard for me to say what you "should" be doing.
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