Spring "Clean"ing

Day 130

Today's post is all about coming clean. These last 30 days have been less than stellar. It all started with the purchase of a new scale. If you thought I hated my last scale, it doesn't come close to the disdain I felt when I first stepped on this one and it told me that I weighed TEN POUNDS more than my old scale. Instead of weighing 227, I weighed 237!!! Pissed off doesn't even come close to how it made me feel.

No matter how you look at it, it's bad. It means that on January 1 when I thought I weighed 249 lbs, I probably really weighed... I can't even type the number. It makes me sick to think about it. It's depressing on so many levels. I just couldn't wrap my brain around it. I've felt like a fraud ever since. Day after day it's been getting to me more and more.

I kept exercising and eating well, but I couldn't get the scale to budge. I thought to myself that if eating clean wasn't working then why work so hard? Little by little some of the junk crept back into my eating habits. First came the Diet Coke, which lead to chips with a sandwich, which led to dessert here and there. Free Day became free weekend and so on.

I picked up two pounds somewhere along the way and hit 239. Then last week I dropped them and went back to 237. This weekend I spent two days doing manual labor helping our friends who lost their home to the flood and dropped 5. This morning I weighed 233. But, to be honest, I don't expect it to hold. It'll probably level out at 235.

Needless to say, it's time for me to do a little spring cleaning. I started by going shopping after work and filling my fridge with the healthy foods that my body really needs. Then I sat down to write this post.  Now, I've come clean to all of you.

Tomorrow I'll post an official weight and measurements. Despite my scale issues, I have lost inches. Go figure.

Cheers!
Margaret