The Big Five Oh!

Day 50

On the 50th day of this 365 day journey I had a crisis of faith. I woke up this morning, exercised, took a shower and cried. Don't ask me why. I don't really know other than I just felt defeated. As days go, this one did not start out on a good note. I've been dealing with some challenging issues both at work and at home this week. There were times at work today when I seriously felt like I was going to lose it. I was off my game from the get go.

Several members of my team had lunch together at Germantown Cafe. (If you live in Nashville and have never been, I highly recommend it.) I nearly had an accident on the way to the restaurant, which would have totally been my fault. And, I was so rattled by the time we got seated that all I could think was no meat today. I mindlessly ordered crab cakes which came served with mashed potatoes and green beans. Courtney, our waiter, walked away and I said "What did i just do? I don't need to be eating crab cakes!" My friends helped me get his attention and I changed my order to the Salmon club with no bacon or avocado and asparagus instead of fries.

By the time we were finished eating, I was in much better spirits. However, it could have been the two diet cokes. Our waiter was really good. He just kept bring me one when he saw my glass getting low. I was all hopped up on caffeine by the time we got back to the office. That is until my weekly marketing meeting. The stress of my week was really beginning to rear it's ugly head. I felt like my lips were moving, but no one was listening. All I kept thinking was "you just have to make it until 4:15, then you can leave for your massage"

I was finally able to get my point across and, by the end, we'd come to some resolution. After that, another one of the main challenges I'd been fighting all week was resolved as well. I ended my work week on a good note and headed to my massage appointment. I was so drained. One and a half hours with Craig and I was a new woman. I can't remember the last time I felt so relaxed. Ah... bliss... where have you been all week? I've missed you.

Our Friday evening was fairly low key... dinner and a movie. Shutter Island is a good flick in case you're interested. I'm off to get a good night's sleep so that I can enjoy my free day tomorrow. I'm planning a trip to Dunkin Doughnuts and a nice long walk on the trail and Indian Lake Village.

Thank God this week is over.

Cheers!
Margaret