Whatever it Takes

Day 34

Some days I just wake up and wish I could be like everyone else. Planning meals and workouts and constantly thinking about what it takes to become a healthier version of myself is a lot of work. And, while I work very hard to make sure that it doesn't take over my life, occasionally, it's just overwhelming.

I used to get up in the morning and never give a single thought to what I was going to eat that day. If I felt like eating a pack of doughnuts, I ate them. If I wanted a burger and fries for lunch... done. Tacos for dinner? You bet. Cheesecake? go for it. Exercise? FUGHEDABOUTIT

That's not me anymore. Now, I have to plan what I'm going to eat either the night before or before I walk out the door in the morning. If I don't get up exercise in the morning, it has to be done at some point after I get home from work and before I go to bed. Most days this is not a problem. Other days, it's just a big pain in the butt.

Today, is one of those days. I almost feel resentful about the fact that I "have" to be so "mindful". There was seriously a part of me that considered eating some crap just out of spite. Fear not... I didn't

I had to dig deep to stay on track today. While I did fare well in the food area, I admit that I skipped my workout. Honestly, I went upstairs as soon as I got home and laid down to take a nap because I was alone and afraid that if I stayed anywhere near the kitchen I'd succumb to Tony's shelf of goodies.

My nap made me feel a lot better and I'm definitely more in control this evening. I'm less "resentful". Nobody said this was going to be easy. And, it's not. But, I will succeed.

Cheers!
Margaret