Rethinking My Strategy

Day 51

I awoke today at 7:30 am with no alarm clock. WHAT!?! Who is this person. What have you done with Margaret. She doesn't wake up this early. Surely, my body has been invaded by aliens. Nope... it's the real Margaret. How do I know? Because I laid there til 9:45 out of spite. Then, I was grumpy for two hours after I got up because I was mad at myself.

I am making a promise to myself to stop doing that right now. I will get up when I'm ready regardless of what time it is. I can always take a nap later or go to bed early if I'm tired. I've been going to bed earlier which makes it easier for me to get up in the morning. Last night I went to bed at 12:30, which is early for me on a Friday. In fact, that used to be my weeknight bedtime. These are the things that go on inside my head. Perhaps you think I'm nuts. Perhaps I'm speaking your language. I don't know. But, I do feel it's important to be honest. If that makes me come off a little eccentric, then I'll just have to deal with it.

Our dream of getting a doughnut this morning was dashed by sleeping in and having to take our camper in for service before the camping season begins next month. Oh well. I wasn't all that jazzed about them anyway. But, it was 2 pm before I got anything to eat at all and I was good and grumpy by then. I've had a hamburger and fries today, a few Doritos and pizza is on its way as I type. Free day just doesn't seem worth it. By the time it gets here, I never know what I really want and I end up eating junk that I don't care about so... what's the point?

I'm thinking that I may need a change in strategy like allowing myself a certain number of free meals on the weekend. (NOT Free weekends!) I dunno.. I'm just thinking out loud. But, I'm certainly not happy with my progress over the past couple of weeks. Last week, I accept. It was planned. But, I just know something is off. This next week, I've decided not only to write down my planned meals, which I do daily. But, I'm also going to write down what I actually ate. And, I think it may be a good time to measure my food just to make sure I'm on target.

It's been seven weeks since I started this journey. I've had some success and I'm happy about that. But, it's important to re-evaluate every so often in order to avoid plateaus. I have gained and lost the same 3 pounds over the past 3 weeks. I can't live with that. I am determined to BUST through it this week. Wish me luck.

Cheers!
Margaret